Would it be monsters? Someone dying? A car accident?
A plane crash? Being chased by a shark?
A million things can go through your mind, but I doubt you ever considered this...
Today my son said to me, "Mommy, I had the worst dream ever."
"What did you dream about?" I asked.
"Well, at first we were supposed to go to a party. It was a family party. That was ok because it was a family party with our family. But when we got there it wasn't a family party."
He started shaking so I said, "It's ok. It was just a dream. If someone got hurt it wasn't real."
He looked at me and sighed in the most exasperated way and then he continued, "No one got hurt. It wasn't a family party. There were like a hundred people there!"
Ok, did you just laugh? Yes, the first instinct is to laugh, but I did not laugh. Instead I just gave him a long hug. For my son, this is truly the WORST DREAM EVER.
That was it. There was no more to it. There were a hundred people there and that was the nightmare.
Autism... Aspergers... Anxiety... He lives it every day, every night, all year long.
I did NOT laugh. As you know, we do not have anyone with autism in our family. On that level, I cannot relate. As someone with SEVERE anxiety, I can relate. I shake. I have been known to panic or "flip out" (I hate it when people say that - they don't get it).
ReplyDeleteI knew if anyone would get it that it would be you.
ReplyDeleteI don't mention myself in here much because I wanted to focus on Bug, but his anxiety is something I can relate to. I have social anxiety, that's what my doctor called it. I don't know if there is a fancier name, but that is pretty darn accurate. Bug's anxiety is more than just social though, he takes it to all new levels (new for me). I'm currently reading a book with various strategies to help him - I'm hoping some of it will work. And he does go to social skills therapy which forces him to deal with some of the anxiety.
poor boy... : /
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